I am not a hero.

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Welp I cannot help but to share my terrible story HURRR. In response to :iconpolicide:'s journal. It was too long for a comment anyways.

I started drawing back in 2003. Ever since I was little I LOVED dragons and dinos, but I only drew dresses with :iconarden323: at the time. I took the art class at my middle school and I really don't have ANYTHING to show from it because they all mysteriously disappeared. How odd.

Needless to say all of what I drew was DRAGON RELATED EVERYTHING. My art teacher always commented on it. My art teacher never really taught how-to-draw or all that. Just what lines are and how to use them. In a sense what you can do with a pencil. I do have some sketches from the sketchbook during those times, but they are lost in my closet/other computer. I honestly don't want to show them, they're embarassing~[and a hassle to scan]. So I'll show the timeline instead, they have some of the drawings from that. dragongirl77.deviantart.com/ar… In improvement meme form~! Yet the pieces I made were a lot of fun, we did screening, block printing, mask making, and all sorts of 2-D and 3-D works. I thought they were terrible to say the least, but my teacher would say otherwise. I wish I could work with those mediums again, the fancy ones, that's be great.

These year's where my NEOPETS years. I have a few older pieces and a good friend of mine's friend taught me how to use Photoshop for coloring. I was able to get a copy of Photoshop 7 and my own little cheap tablet and started to abuse the brush and smudge. I was no where near good and tried entering the beauty and art contest many times. Never won c: My baby was a cloud Eyrie. Always wanted a draik too. I would draw draiks and draiks for days and finally raised up enough points to get a potion. Then someone hacked my account... and changed my password. I stopped playing, I was destroyed.

Then there was the Tigera. My first ever character that I wrote a 12 chapter story about. No one but me will EVER READ IT. IT HURTS TO LOOK AT. This was even before I even knew of the term anthro since she was an anthro tiger. Fancy that. Again, no pictures. Not until high school at least.

During the summer between middle school and high school I got into anime and roleplaying on a site called Quizilla if anyone remembers it. My first anime was Naruto. Because ninjas. I would always try in attempt to draw my favorite character and me <//< To my standards, it was cute enough.

HIGH SCHOOL. Fun stuff. I met :iconpichipichiku: right off the bat in the new media course. We both talked about the akatsuki and drew our stuff. She was very good at people and chibis, while I lacked how to draw anything that didn't have fur or scales. We made our own little group and other friends. I would draw dragons over and over, because that's all I knew how to do.  She taught me how to draw anime with this little book called "How to draw manga". In turn resulted badly. Who do you trust by dragongirl77 I clearly did not know how boobs worked. So I continued on with dragons and all sorts of creatures c: Silver Dragon by dragongirl77 Angel White Tiger by dragongirl77 Badly at least.

The next season rolled on by and I met the lovely :iconrosli:, a beautiful person and artist even at the time when I met her. She helped me make my persona, I remember it was in gym. Rainy day, somehow she brought her sketchbook in. Friends and me with POCKY by dragongirl77 The one with horns obviously. Lonely was my persona and has always been. I was always jealous of Rosli and her talents >:U you butt.
Through those first 2 years, I was into blood, gore, gothic, and other stuff of that variety. I wanted to go more into the goth scene, but I wasn't strong enough to completely take it up :\ SO INSTEAD I MAKE IT VERY SUBTLE. GO ME. Drawings weren't though Emo school girl by dragongirl77 Chairs made of human skeleton by dragongirl77 Sorta.
I made a dA around this time too, near my birthday as well, but I was a VERY prideful person and did not really realize it. I didn't want to look up anything or look up great artists. I feel bad.
The years passed and I met scott who in turn fueled the majority if not all of the depressing, gorey, angsty things that have been drawn from when I met him to when I met Raven and started college[or just the end of 2011]. That's not so much important, the real importance was when I met :iconwellhidden: and :iconlani-spades: on iscribble. The best times were there, I ADORED Ari's style and Lani's coloring. DJ and Lonely Battles o 3o by dragongirl77 Her style was sketchy and formed beautifully, I loved it so much. So I tired my hardest to impove my style and have it become sketchy and beautiful as hers. What I made wasn't beautiful, but it was a mix of whatever I drew before and her sketchiness. They're coming... haha by dragongirl77 That's the best I could find as an example. She was my idol and introduced me to :iconsqueedgemonster: and the music by Renard. Loved them both, and also learned what a furry was as a bonus.

At this point I realize art is a hobby to me, I only doodled, never really made any pieces to show. Then I wanted to take AP Art. Before doing so, I was able to meet the amazing :iconmadgeneticist: and watched her put the finishing touches and took a picture of one of her amazing pieces she sent off to the AP test. Another idol added to the list. Along with :iconqueenofdragins: and :iconneondragon:.

Towards taking AP art, I got into collecting skulls. It was a slow collection, but my first find was of a gray fox skull in tact with a complete jaw and set of teeth. I was so excited I drew the damn thing. Once Lost by dragongirl77
Now looking back at my first AP art attempt, I should have been better prepared with shading techniques, coloring, and form. But no I jumped the gun way to early and these pitiful attempts at "art" were created. Oh hai +Saddly+ by dragongirl77 Black Bunny by dragongirl77. I did not pass if you were wondering, I got a 2. I could draw and color, but it needed more detail and work. A lot more.
So for the rest of the year and summer until my senior year where upon which I would try to take AP art again and do better. I practice shading, coloring, my technique, and other mediums so I could improve my everything.  
The next year rolled around and I worked art with AP Calculus and my other studies. I feel like I did much better on my own this round then I did before, seeing some have better backgrounds and better detail than last time.
Dance in the Clouds by dragongirl77 Midnight blue +HAPPY B-DAY+ by dragongirl77 Rainbow Ribs +PRINT REQUEST+ by dragongirl77

I was proud of myself for going so far, but in the end I still wasn't ready and got a 2 again. I got a 3 on the calculus one, that was a plus.

Over that summer I met :iconhowlingstar89::iconjinxjencks::iconzenismaster: and :iconyacchin: at AX and all was well.
So I moved on to UC Riverside where I met THE AMAZING MOST WONDERFUL PERSON :iconpolicide:~! She took a one way ticket to my idol list :I Indeed. I didn't draw much during college though, a few pieces here and there, but to be honest I was too busy talking with the PANDORA DANIES to even doodle : P Then when we found G+ and Join.me, all of the pandora doodles were born, but nothing personal, nothing big. I also met the incredible Nikki, who started to teach me how to color and texture better with SAI. In turn she helped me make bun bun Bun bun by dragongirl77 background and all. Also :iconhowlingstar89: forced inspired me to get out of drawing in a toon style and go into a more realistic style. I love him for that because now I'm diving into the wonders that are REFERENCES and HELP.

Shame how until now I was too prideful to even look at someones picture and get ideas or help improve myself. I had a folder for reference pictures for years and only now am I actually using them to their full ability. I feel better about my work and where it has led me c: Technically nowhere career wise, but personally I've been happier and more confident then I have ever been. This was fun to write and not a very interesting story to tell, but I hope you get a kick out of it. As far as I know, I have not been an art hero nor will I ever be in the nearby future. I want to start drawing traditionally again and making pieces for a portfolio. I'll be looking forward to that.
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PichiPichiku's avatar
you went from awesome to amzeringlitasticallydoushus(?) !! so ^^ there ^^